juchemane:

ew i hate being aware that my body isnt producing any feelgood chems because its tired and wants me to be sad to deter me from being awake any longer and just sleep versus being conscious and bummed

sleep deprivation feels like the groggiest most hopeless narcotic comedown ever, except there was no fun part beforehand

 

how accurately put, i have been suffering from this for weeks but when i do lay down, i cannot fall asleep

i’ve been really bummed out lately and serge thinks i’m just in a funk or reacting to being off birth-control (due to sheer laziness) 

i’m really not sure what to think- my eating habits fluctuate, i have a vitamin d deficiency, i don’t get enough sleep, i don’t get enough exercise

i’m quite unhealthy…come to think of it